Doors

Working on it...

When I see you...

My feet get a little unsteady
for your presence I am never ready
I am overexposed
naked without all my emotional clothes

Those clothes allow me to dismiss you
to lie to myself that I never missed you
that you sank without a trace
that I hadn't got used to your familiar face

I got more than used to it, it felt protective
I would seek out your presence like a detective
and then you disappeared
and I pretended that I didn't care

So between us there is an invisible wall
We no longer play invisible ball
and whenever your around
I am deafened by the silence of that sound

That is when I stumble
like a biscuit I begin to crumble
and I hate biscuits
Just like I hate being the only misfit

I thought you might be a misfit too
and that is what attracted me to you
so when the connection came to an end
I mourned the fact that we may never be friends

But I had blocked that out of my mind
It hurt too much to keep it where I could find
But when I see you I know it never went away
and my messages become to mixed to convey...

Is it just electromagnetic radiation
a photonic display of all our aspirations
the speed the way it burns so bright
just like life, the energy is hard to fight

Most light comes out of the dark
under stars having nidnight feasts in the park
night contrasts the beauty i find
a beauty to which so many others are blind

Often to those that chose to follow deviant ths
coz that was the stone in which they were cast
being cast aside they're forced to hide their shine
Shine
but hiding breeds shame so that part of them dies
because not all the suffering can teach
there are depths no music can reach
we are taught darkness is something to fear
because it casts shadows on how we wish to appear

some willfully deny the shine of others
it is only their shine they wish to buffer
so they will tread on the backs of another
at times seeking light causes others to suffer

just ask africa, war torn land of hurt
lost limbs because of diamonds in the dirt
so that light can be shining next to skin
blinded by false light when true light comes from within

it is the cause of so many a sin
its only worth what we are willing to pay, belongs in a in a bin
if we all did that its value would be gone
because the value is just an elaborate con

light damages heals and allows us to see
from melanomas to laser surgery
but lets remembr all light comes from the sun
without the sun no other light cud ever be shone

The Beauty of Scars

Your scars are like the stars

they shine so brightly

To others

they may be unsightly

In honesty

your scars invite me

like a skin

I would hold you tightly

I saw the story unfold on your skin

I knew

you were all I needed in this life of sin

Long sleeves couldn't hide your cuts

and i'm so used to being shot

I spilt my guts

Our faces were proud

we stood tall

the face is the mask that hides it all

I'll quit that face a thousand times

to follow tracks that lead me to a beautiful mind

Was it a drunken accident or did people hurt you?

the beauty of what you repress

It shines right through you

even though you try to hide it

shaped by what you despise

You will deny it

restricted by your defence mechanisms

Couldn't break those mental chains with an exorcism

I only broke through because I'm scarred like you

I knew exactly what you were going through

When you told me what they'd done to your skin

it was like a volcano had erupted within

I would deny them hands

They blemish the only thing that holds you like I can

I turn anger to passion hoping love will heal you

For you to know they touched you

but they could never feel you

The way that I do

They way you know, I love you so

because I'm fucked up too


I'll hold your hand when you can't hold mine

whenever you succeed to hide that shine



I'll love you even though your love is pain

coz you saw my scars and didn't walk away

you knew hiding made me feel ashamed

but that's a different story for a different day



We both got hurt growing up in the dirt

and bad memories of wearing a skirt

in your scars

I see the sum of your fears

your story, the very reason

you are fierce!



I see the lies behind that smile

I see the blood of emotional scars

bleed out of your eyes

In your eyes I see your song

the more I explored your scars

The more they shone



as we lay here battlescarred

my scars are why I loved you

from the start

My actions invited you

to a mind that could really excite you



coz



My scars are like the stars

they shine, they shine

a shine to which others are blind

I love my scars because they define me

and I had to see your scars

because they

shined so brightly...