Rhymes of my times
Thursday 22 March 2012
Monday 19 March 2012
When I see you...
My feet get a little unsteady
for your presence I am never ready
I am overexposed
naked without all my emotional clothes
Those clothes allow me to dismiss you
to lie to myself that I never missed you
that you sank without a trace
that I hadn't got used to your familiar face
I got more than used to it, it felt protective
I would seek out your presence like a detective
and then you disappeared
and I pretended that I didn't care
So between us there is an invisible wall
We no longer play invisible ball
and whenever your around
I am deafened by the silence of that sound
That is when I stumble
like a biscuit I begin to crumble
and I hate biscuits
Just like I hate being the only misfit
I thought you might be a misfit too
and that is what attracted me to you
so when the connection came to an end
I mourned the fact that we may never be friends
But I had blocked that out of my mind
It hurt too much to keep it where I could find
But when I see you I know it never went away
and my messages become to mixed to convey...
for your presence I am never ready
I am overexposed
naked without all my emotional clothes
Those clothes allow me to dismiss you
to lie to myself that I never missed you
that you sank without a trace
that I hadn't got used to your familiar face
I got more than used to it, it felt protective
I would seek out your presence like a detective
and then you disappeared
and I pretended that I didn't care
So between us there is an invisible wall
We no longer play invisible ball
and whenever your around
I am deafened by the silence of that sound
That is when I stumble
like a biscuit I begin to crumble
and I hate biscuits
Just like I hate being the only misfit
I thought you might be a misfit too
and that is what attracted me to you
so when the connection came to an end
I mourned the fact that we may never be friends
But I had blocked that out of my mind
It hurt too much to keep it where I could find
But when I see you I know it never went away
and my messages become to mixed to convey...
Thursday 1 March 2012
Is it just electromagnetic radiation
a photonic display of all our aspirations
the speed the way it burns so bright
just like life, the energy is hard to fight
Most light comes out of the dark
under stars having nidnight feasts in the park
night contrasts the beauty i find
a beauty to which so many others are blind
Often to those that chose to follow deviant ths
coz that was the stone in which they were cast
being cast aside they're forced to hide their shine
Shine
but hiding breeds shame so that part of them dies
because not all the suffering can teach
there are depths no music can reach
we are taught darkness is something to fear
because it casts shadows on how we wish to appear
some willfully deny the shine of others
it is only their shine they wish to buffer
so they will tread on the backs of another
at times seeking light causes others to suffer
just ask africa, war torn land of hurt
lost limbs because of diamonds in the dirt
so that light can be shining next to skin
blinded by false light when true light comes from within
it is the cause of so many a sin
its only worth what we are willing to pay, belongs in a in a bin
if we all did that its value would be gone
because the value is just an elaborate con
light damages heals and allows us to see
from melanomas to laser surgery
but lets remembr all light comes from the sun
without the sun no other light cud ever be shone
a photonic display of all our aspirations
the speed the way it burns so bright
just like life, the energy is hard to fight
Most light comes out of the dark
under stars having nidnight feasts in the park
night contrasts the beauty i find
a beauty to which so many others are blind
Often to those that chose to follow deviant ths
coz that was the stone in which they were cast
being cast aside they're forced to hide their shine
Shine
but hiding breeds shame so that part of them dies
because not all the suffering can teach
there are depths no music can reach
we are taught darkness is something to fear
because it casts shadows on how we wish to appear
some willfully deny the shine of others
it is only their shine they wish to buffer
so they will tread on the backs of another
at times seeking light causes others to suffer
just ask africa, war torn land of hurt
lost limbs because of diamonds in the dirt
so that light can be shining next to skin
blinded by false light when true light comes from within
it is the cause of so many a sin
its only worth what we are willing to pay, belongs in a in a bin
if we all did that its value would be gone
because the value is just an elaborate con
light damages heals and allows us to see
from melanomas to laser surgery
but lets remembr all light comes from the sun
without the sun no other light cud ever be shone
Wednesday 29 February 2012
The Beauty of Scars
Your scars are like the stars
they shine so brightly
To others
they may be unsightly
In honesty
your scars invite me
like a skin
I would hold you tightly
I saw the story unfold on your skin
I knew
you were all I needed in this life of sin
Long sleeves couldn't hide your cuts
and i'm so used to being shot
I spilt my guts
Our faces were proud
we stood tall
the face is the mask that hides it all
I'll quit that face a thousand times
to follow tracks that lead me to a beautiful mind
Was it a drunken accident or did people hurt you?
the beauty of what you repress
It shines right through you
even though you try to hide it
shaped by what you despise
You will deny it
restricted by your defence mechanisms
Couldn't break those mental chains with an exorcism
I only broke through because I'm scarred like you
I knew exactly what you were going through
When you told me what they'd done to your skin
it was like a volcano had erupted within
I would deny them hands
They blemish the only thing that holds you like I can
I turn anger to passion hoping love will heal you
For you to know they touched you
but they could never feel you
The way that I do
They way you know, I love you so
because I'm fucked up too
I'll hold your hand when you can't hold mine
whenever you succeed to hide that shine
I'll love you even though your love is pain
coz you saw my scars and didn't walk away
you knew hiding made me feel ashamed
but that's a different story for a different day
We both got hurt growing up in the dirt
and bad memories of wearing a skirt
in your scars
I see the sum of your fears
your story, the very reason
you are fierce!
I see the lies behind that smile
I see the blood of emotional scars
bleed out of your eyes
In your eyes I see your song
the more I explored your scars
The more they shone
as we lay here battlescarred
my scars are why I loved you
from the start
My actions invited you
to a mind that could really excite you
coz
My scars are like the stars
they shine, they shine
a shine to which others are blind
I love my scars because they define me
and I had to see your scars
because they
shined so brightly...
they shine so brightly
To others
they may be unsightly
In honesty
your scars invite me
like a skin
I would hold you tightly
I saw the story unfold on your skin
I knew
you were all I needed in this life of sin
Long sleeves couldn't hide your cuts
and i'm so used to being shot
I spilt my guts
Our faces were proud
we stood tall
the face is the mask that hides it all
I'll quit that face a thousand times
to follow tracks that lead me to a beautiful mind
Was it a drunken accident or did people hurt you?
the beauty of what you repress
It shines right through you
even though you try to hide it
shaped by what you despise
You will deny it
restricted by your defence mechanisms
Couldn't break those mental chains with an exorcism
I only broke through because I'm scarred like you
I knew exactly what you were going through
When you told me what they'd done to your skin
it was like a volcano had erupted within
I would deny them hands
They blemish the only thing that holds you like I can
I turn anger to passion hoping love will heal you
For you to know they touched you
but they could never feel you
The way that I do
They way you know, I love you so
because I'm fucked up too
I'll hold your hand when you can't hold mine
whenever you succeed to hide that shine
I'll love you even though your love is pain
coz you saw my scars and didn't walk away
you knew hiding made me feel ashamed
but that's a different story for a different day
We both got hurt growing up in the dirt
and bad memories of wearing a skirt
in your scars
I see the sum of your fears
your story, the very reason
you are fierce!
I see the lies behind that smile
I see the blood of emotional scars
bleed out of your eyes
In your eyes I see your song
the more I explored your scars
The more they shone
as we lay here battlescarred
my scars are why I loved you
from the start
My actions invited you
to a mind that could really excite you
coz
My scars are like the stars
they shine, they shine
a shine to which others are blind
I love my scars because they define me
and I had to see your scars
because they
shined so brightly...
Thursday 11 August 2011
Why, Not, Nothing?
13.9 billion years ago
We don’t know precisely what happened
Only that, the universe began expanding
And at that point, our collective fate was handed
To share in an existence where we are all demanding
To get a brain and a body
Designed by physics or a deity
And if this was so exquisitely designed
I’d love the deity to grace our societies
Observe the fruit from its seed of creativity
Reveal true prophecy, relieve our anxieties
And where it came from is what I would mention, because
Every existential answer is a rhetorical question
And now we are in session
There is no magic wand
A hymn is just a song
In this universe of matter
And chemical bonds
To believe in a creator would insult my intelligence
Creating what’s always been does not make any sense
Is man that egotistical to believe?
That universe is something man could ever achieve
No being could be that supreme
There’s string theory, the goldilocks paradox
A nuclear configuration of atoms and cells
A superior alternative to the god hypothesis
But just like sex, religion sells
We are hungry both physically and spiritually
Who would create that hunger, those needs to feed?
Would any creator need to sow that seed?
Why anything at all?
WHY. NOT. NOTHING.
Something has lead to questions
With unobtainable answers
Neither prayer nor study
Makes those answers come any faster
Both symbiotic and parallel
The universe has us gravitated under a spell
It started with a bang and so do we
We need oxygen and so giveth the tree
I’m spinning in this monsters ball
Torn asunder, I was born to wonder
But would any answer
Ever break my fall?
Or provide me with comfort and solace
Reduce my fears of getting old and shopping at Wallis
Explain how bad events often bind us together
And why people blame god
When its nothing but weather
Tectonic plate friction causes tsunami’s and earthquakes
Friction in society breeds violence and mistakes
We are drawn to things that both kill and sustain
Like the love we seek that often causes so much pain
It’s all relative EMC (SQUARED)
We’re all related but still haven’t learnt to share
A collectively diverse nation, stars in a constellation
Ready to rise but now I’ve run out of patience
Sick of awaiting a consciousness renaissance
And witnessing destruction caused by chasing a status
Environmentally and socially we are on a course to hinder
When we could save lives like Schindler
Be perfect all the time, do everything right
And still get struck by a meteorite!
So the big question remains, why are we here?
From molecules to matter, I don’t care
I enjoy the wonder and the mystery
as well as keeping upto date with new discoveries
But, when I think about it analytically
It’s a 14 billion year old crime scene
Though contemplating existence
is my brains favourite toy
The evidence of origin
Must have long been destroyed.
We don’t know precisely what happened
Only that, the universe began expanding
And at that point, our collective fate was handed
To share in an existence where we are all demanding
To get a brain and a body
Designed by physics or a deity
And if this was so exquisitely designed
I’d love the deity to grace our societies
Observe the fruit from its seed of creativity
Reveal true prophecy, relieve our anxieties
And where it came from is what I would mention, because
Every existential answer is a rhetorical question
And now we are in session
There is no magic wand
A hymn is just a song
In this universe of matter
And chemical bonds
To believe in a creator would insult my intelligence
Creating what’s always been does not make any sense
Is man that egotistical to believe?
That universe is something man could ever achieve
No being could be that supreme
There’s string theory, the goldilocks paradox
A nuclear configuration of atoms and cells
A superior alternative to the god hypothesis
But just like sex, religion sells
We are hungry both physically and spiritually
Who would create that hunger, those needs to feed?
Would any creator need to sow that seed?
Why anything at all?
WHY. NOT. NOTHING.
Something has lead to questions
With unobtainable answers
Neither prayer nor study
Makes those answers come any faster
Both symbiotic and parallel
The universe has us gravitated under a spell
It started with a bang and so do we
We need oxygen and so giveth the tree
I’m spinning in this monsters ball
Torn asunder, I was born to wonder
But would any answer
Ever break my fall?
Or provide me with comfort and solace
Reduce my fears of getting old and shopping at Wallis
Explain how bad events often bind us together
And why people blame god
When its nothing but weather
Tectonic plate friction causes tsunami’s and earthquakes
Friction in society breeds violence and mistakes
We are drawn to things that both kill and sustain
Like the love we seek that often causes so much pain
It’s all relative EMC (SQUARED)
We’re all related but still haven’t learnt to share
A collectively diverse nation, stars in a constellation
Ready to rise but now I’ve run out of patience
Sick of awaiting a consciousness renaissance
And witnessing destruction caused by chasing a status
Environmentally and socially we are on a course to hinder
When we could save lives like Schindler
Be perfect all the time, do everything right
And still get struck by a meteorite!
So the big question remains, why are we here?
From molecules to matter, I don’t care
I enjoy the wonder and the mystery
as well as keeping upto date with new discoveries
But, when I think about it analytically
It’s a 14 billion year old crime scene
Though contemplating existence
is my brains favourite toy
The evidence of origin
Must have long been destroyed.
Thursday 16 June 2011
An Altered State
I'm Killing myself softly
but not with a song
as I draw in sustenance
from the end of a bong
I'm elevated chemically
but
am I smoking it or is it smoking me?
I like to pace myself with weed
then when it's time for action
there's, speed speed speed!
Does living fast mean I'll die young
is fun a substitute for the fact I never won
It's been years since I've been on a plane
so the chemicals provide the release that I crave
though I have much more to gain
from never being that chemicals slave
but still a slave i am
for lack of a better plan
I'm one of the damned
I'm one of the damned
That get to bear witness to their self destruction
I'm all too self aware, but I need to function
like...
when I'm out at some club
I've got my vodka, cider, shots and rum
if I'm not stumbling then it's no fun
and my belly's rumbling from the damage I've done
I like being drunk, is that controversial?
I wash away all my drunken sins with Persil
and recover in rapid time
with a little help from GlaxoSmithKline
Though I'm aware that's killing me too
eventually the prophecy is gonna come true
How do I choose with an ambivalent voice
I will lose because I know I've made the wrong choice
I'm killing myself softly
but not with a song
I've realized
the drugs have had me all along
It was coded into my genes
to get fucked off my face via any means
It was destiny, it was fate
to prefer living life in an altered state
I want to resist
but I don't know how
I was high when I wrote this
and I'm high right now...
but not with a song
as I draw in sustenance
from the end of a bong
I'm elevated chemically
but
am I smoking it or is it smoking me?
I like to pace myself with weed
then when it's time for action
there's, speed speed speed!
Does living fast mean I'll die young
is fun a substitute for the fact I never won
It's been years since I've been on a plane
so the chemicals provide the release that I crave
though I have much more to gain
from never being that chemicals slave
but still a slave i am
for lack of a better plan
I'm one of the damned
I'm one of the damned
That get to bear witness to their self destruction
I'm all too self aware, but I need to function
like...
when I'm out at some club
I've got my vodka, cider, shots and rum
if I'm not stumbling then it's no fun
and my belly's rumbling from the damage I've done
I like being drunk, is that controversial?
I wash away all my drunken sins with Persil
and recover in rapid time
with a little help from GlaxoSmithKline
Though I'm aware that's killing me too
eventually the prophecy is gonna come true
How do I choose with an ambivalent voice
I will lose because I know I've made the wrong choice
I'm killing myself softly
but not with a song
I've realized
the drugs have had me all along
It was coded into my genes
to get fucked off my face via any means
It was destiny, it was fate
to prefer living life in an altered state
I want to resist
but I don't know how
I was high when I wrote this
and I'm high right now...
Tuesday 1 February 2011
Trouble...
They come, they go
weaving in and out my life
anger, tears
trouble & strife
being in love with love
and angered by my ways
because i won't
fall in love in a day
their self worth
somehow my responsibility
and because of my mask
they fail to see my fragility
then they wonder
why i let things die
it's coz when i was laughing
they couldn't hear me cry...
weaving in and out my life
anger, tears
trouble & strife
being in love with love
and angered by my ways
because i won't
fall in love in a day
their self worth
somehow my responsibility
and because of my mask
they fail to see my fragility
then they wonder
why i let things die
it's coz when i was laughing
they couldn't hear me cry...
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